Ehhhh... Sorry, but I have little respect for psychologists, especially make-belief internet psychologists.
Superkill, if your situation is as you described it, then I have all the respect in the world for you. You are more of a man than me. There, I said it. God bless you, I hope you'll be alright. The debacle you had with the submarine service left me wondering, but you proved me wrong.
You are wrong about one thing however, because I did enlist. The U.S. Army annulled my contract about a week after my surgery (5 weeks before my official ship-date), and I do feel quite raw about it. Like I said, there are two kinds of people who haven't served their country: cripples and cowards. Unfortunately, I am former. The way I look at it, maybe God has other plans for me.
And concerning people who are calling me homo, I've got a newsflash for you. We are all homo! (To some extent) Hitman is homo more than others, because he likes to take funny pills and rub his bell-end with other boys.
Hey, maybe Ecstasy does feel like heaven, and it may feel better than anything I have ever done, but guess what? I'm not touching that stuff with a ten-foot pole.
I'M OUT