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Offline 100% not blacksheepboy

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Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« on: January 22, 2016, 03:23:45 pm »
I want to say this before I leave forever.

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia four years ago. I told you this place was like my internet shrine of the gods. I came here after a day of seeing people's faces melt into black blood. And I recently lost my mind, and couldn't get enough... sexual thoughts. I wanted to share everything.

One week ago, I fell in love, really hard. And two days after meeting the girl, I was cured. It was... a gift, I guess. Anyway, welcome me back, or don't. I want to be a better person. I'll go under radar, and stop the bullshit, I promise. This is probably the clearest I've been on this forums in literally four years. You lose yourself after the first time someone disappears like Gohan before your eyes, only to appear five minutes later, and you think you've been talking to yourself.

Welcome to... a better me. Again... yeah. I didn't get together with the girl, but I will always be thankful for her curing me. She was schizophrenic too, until I cured her back. She was easier than me. It takes seeing into the eyes of a monster you love to be cured. Thank God for it too. Sorry for the sentiments, and cheers.

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #1 on: January 22, 2016, 03:26:21 pm »
Oh my God, I am reading my posts, and shoutbox comments, and I was so fucking gone. It's a shame Darkcrusade disappeared. I used to like him, before I lost my mind. Oh well.

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #2 on: January 22, 2016, 03:38:39 pm »
One more thing... I just can't shut up.

I wrote the first sane thing I've said in years. It's the story of my... sane life, back in the day. If it gets me banned, it shouldn't, because it's... good, not bad. Just... off-color. I've always been adventurous. It's the one thing that kept me sane, and gave me the door out. She was a fighter, and fought very hard. I worked her really hard one night after crying my eyes out to her, and she thanked with letting me kiss her hand. Good enough I guess.

I've been brewing on this story all my life, until I just fucking wrote it down. Forgot it over the years of... schizophrenia.

That's all. Five pages. Not long. Just... hella adventurous.

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #3 on: January 22, 2016, 04:27:36 pm »
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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #6 on: January 22, 2016, 09:17:02 pm »
I didn't get together with the girl, but I will always be thankful for her curing me. She was schizophrenic too, until I cured her back.

What do you mean by "cure" here?
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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #7 on: January 23, 2016, 05:17:38 am »
What do you mean by "cure" here?
Fisting.


Even these kind of people can get laid
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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #8 on: January 23, 2016, 06:08:12 am »
I am fuming in agony. I gave you my heart. I gave you... well, the empty cavity. I was the life of this forums, and now no one gives a shit. I will crush this forums with flies, and you will all be driven out. Goodbye Soldat forums, the empty pit of the Earth WITH NO HEART. Everyone that is a member of this forums, EVERYONE, I curse with NO HEART, for TEN YEARS.

In three seconds.

3, 2, 1.

ZERO.

blackworsheepboy eh? xD

Offline 100% not blacksheepboy

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #9 on: January 24, 2016, 06:52:12 pm »
Oh my God, you guys are priceless. I guess I'll stick to my new alias, if I'm not banned. Here's to wishing. Haha, I'm such an idiot.

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #10 on: January 24, 2016, 09:24:40 pm »
how fucking melodramatic
takes about a year to get over the skirt lest once actively refuses to
cherish the good bury the rest and let it go
now go mow the lawn

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #11 on: January 25, 2016, 05:58:24 pm »
shutter island made me question my sanity more than these posts

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #12 on: January 29, 2016, 07:17:22 pm »
I'm going to tell you a story.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKOQQZtE-4k



.. oh, you wouldn't deserve that version. I watched this as a kid and mine had a somewhat darker ending. They died out, but I can't find the proper version now. Can't find anything proper at all tbh. Everything seems to be tainted nowadays.
« Last Edit: January 29, 2016, 08:47:46 pm by Name »

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #13 on: January 30, 2016, 05:27:50 pm »
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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #14 on: January 30, 2016, 05:38:54 pm »
I'm going to tell you a story.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKOQQZtE-4k



.. oh, you wouldn't deserve that version. I watched this as a kid and mine had a somewhat darker ending. They died out, but I can't find the proper version now. Can't find anything proper at all tbh. Everything seems to be tainted nowadays.

https://youtu.be/PKOQQZtE-4k?t=3m50s 3:50 - 5:25
so sad  :'(
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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #15 on: March 02, 2016, 06:22:14 am »
YOLO

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #16 on: March 13, 2016, 05:50:45 pm »
When I clicked on The Lounge and saw a bunch of blacksheepboy's threads locked I was laughing so hard, I don't know why.

I'm literally in tears hahahaha.
This signature was borked. Now it is not.

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Re: Let me Tell my Story, and then judge me
« Reply #17 on: March 14, 2016, 02:40:16 pm »
BRING THE ME'DANKS!
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