Ok, I know that maybe I shouldn't post it here...but I wanna know what you guys think.
This is a "Camping_Carl" sort of situation, but I'm not dumping my girl for a mail-order Asian *****....
Judge me, make lame jokes, or anything like that, and I'll smite thee willingly. I want straight out honest answers, and thats all.
Ok, so a week or so ago...I have a problem with 2 girls that liked me. Lets consider them as Girl A, and Girl B.
I had told myself that I'd give them both a chance....and I chose the girl I (thought) I felt comfortable with (Girl A). Everything went fine untill 2 days ago, when I was talking to her best friend (Girl B), and she told me that the girl I was interested in (Girl A)....Was dating some guy that she's known for quiet a while. Now...I've never met this girl, but we had shared our thoughts and feelings with each other...and she told me that she'd wait for me. (Girl A)
So...That night I was pretty drunk, so I didn't take it to heart...and I didn't believe it. I asked her best friend (Girl B) to MAKE SURE that it was truth, and to call me and tell me the next day. She does the next day, and I find out that it IS true. I go nuts...2 weeks before I pack my bags and go and meet her (Girl A)....she basically CHEATS on me!...I feel that she used me! ....
Anyway...so she (Girl A) comes online yesterday (on MSN)...and messages me. "Just tell me you hate me and I'll understand why" was what she said to me. I told her what I thought, and she gave me excuses. I had once told her (about 4 months ago, not long after I met her online) that I didn't know if I was ever gonna get there to meet her, and that she shouldn't wait for me. So, yesterday...while we had our little argument...:
I say: Why did you do it?
her: Well your the one who told me to not wait around!
me: What kind of excuse is that? I was coming to see you IN ONE ****ING WEEK and you go and do this....and you use THAT excuse?
her: ...
She begged me to forgive her, but I told her that I don't want to know her. I don't have time for those that make me weak inside, and then burn me. I hate cheaters, and she was a cheater.
ANYWAY. I basically told her at the end of the conversation "F**k off, go back to your new boyfriend and stay the f**k out of my life!" and signed off. I do feel guilty that I said that to her, but when I start feeling guilty...a voice in my head repeats "she's a cheater, she used you...don't let her get to you".
After that, I was talking to one of her friends (the other one that has a crush on me, and I went to school with her...Girl B) and she said that I should still come down, and catch up with her. Now...before all the other stuff happened, This girl had offered to let me stay at her place while I was own there (and I accepted, as I had nowhere else to stay). I get an SMS from her after a few hours telling me something like this:
"My sister just asked me where you were going to sleep, and she reckons u should sleep with me"
Now...I wasn't shocked when she said that, I kinda had a thought through my head saying "You like her, so do it!". I really do like this girl, and I have ever since I met her. I used to think about her all the time before she introduced me to her friend. And even while I was getting to know the girl.
Right now...after all thats happened over the last few days, I've been thinking about it...and I felt that I was exactly like the girl that "cheated" on me (Girl A). I feel that I've cheated on her, after all the things that me and her friend talked about.
Last night I was talking to Girl B's cousin, who is living with her at the moment. Her cousin reckons that maybe God is trying to tell me that Girl A was just a distraction, and that Girl B is the one I should date. This got me thinking, and now I'm confused....
Help me please!
Should I feel guilty for what I said to Girl A?
Am I any better than the Girl A who cheated on me?
What should I do about Girl B?
What should I do about it all?
Is god trying to tell me that I should be with Girl B?
